I ordered a pizza and ate 4 slices.
It was within my points, but it wasn't what I had PLANNED to do. I sabotaged myself, got rid of that confident feeling, and went back to what was safe. Eating pizza til I was stuffed was not a good thing to do. But it did make me feel better.
This scares me so much. I don't want to fail this time - I really do want to succeed and become healthier. But I have this deep inner voice telling me I'm going to fail, and how easy it would be just to stop trying. And I listened. If I could kick myself, I would.
So I'm just going to keep on trucking. That's all I can do, and I have to be better prepared for that evil little voice inside. Slip ups are bound to happen. There are a ton of things I could have done differently, but I didn't do a one of them.
What I DID manage to do?
Stop at 4 slices when I could have eaten twice that.
Small changes bring on big differences. Eventually.